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Christian Filardo created Inquire Within on September 24, 2011 to actively research communication amongst individuals online. Participants of Inquire Within have completed surveys, partaken in open chat rooms, and interacted with Filardo in exchange for personalized art objects created based on interactions and survey results.

To fully understand this project one must start at the beginning of the site and work towards the first page. Do this by going to the last page of the website (you will find numbers at the bottom of the window) and working your way forward.

Also watch this video.

For any questions email
christianfilardo@gmail.com

First Survey – Personality Maps
Second Survey – Animated GIFS
Third Survey – List of Amazement
Fourth Survey – Made you a mix (click on the mix to get it)
Final Survey – Water Color Auras

So I made an origami book/zine to wrap up this whole piece. It contains what I feel is my general philosophy on how to conduct oneself in the online world. There are 100 total and they will be distributed throughout the United States. 

Participant Eleven // Final Survey 

1. Why do you want what you want?
What do I want?

2. How are the things around you relating to one another?
Everything is part of everything. I think.

3. The water or the earth?
Part of everything.

4. Do you have any medical conditions?
I will if I don’t get some sleep! Wait is worrying a medical condition?

5. Have you ever had a near death experience?
Not near enough.

6. When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back?
I already did. But I’ve kind of lost track of where “back” is exactly.

7. How many life goals have you had?
Too many. And by that I mean none.

8. Describe your last conversation?
In a word, disheartening.

9. What is the next step?
Reparations.

10. Are these surveys?
Kinda.

Participant Ten // Final Survey

1. Why do you want what you want?

Woody Allen said, “The heart wants what it wants,” I’ll justify anything with that.

2. How are the things around you relating to one another?

That’s what I am trying to figure out, I think objects and people and situations are so

strange right now. Sometimes I even look at my dog and think “how weird is it that I have this tiny

animal who is dependent on me to feed and give her love, and she doesn’t even need anyone of

her species to feel good?” It’s kind of like when you write something on paper and you know it’s

spelled right but, for some reason, it looks weird and you have to show it to someone and say, “Is

this spelled right? It looks weird.” That’s how everything feels to me right now, maybe always.

3. The water or the earth?

Being in the ocean scares me; I went snorkeling at night once and was scared and

another time I almost got pulled away from the shore by the waves, those were both traumatizing.

But I’m really into looking up weird sea creatures, and I love watching Blue Planet. I guess I’ll say

water, especially since my sign is the crab.

4. Do you have any medical conditions?

I get patellar subluxations, which means my kneecap pops out, then back in. When I was

in elementary school, the P.E. teacher had us do shuttle runs, and my knee popped out and

made me fall to the concrete. I complained that it hurt and I couldn’t walk on it, since she couldn’t

see physical evidence of what happened she accused me of faking it. When I was 22 I went and

had X-rays done to see what was up, my doctor looked like Adam Savage and he told me I have

shallow trochlear grooves and that’s what was causing my knees to pop. I felt vindicated, and

satisfied that my P.E. teacher was a jerk. The last time it popped was in December, I didn’t walk

well for at least 2-3 months and I sometimes had to use a leopard-print cane, and only since

August does it feel normal again.

5. Have you ever had a near death experience?

When I was younger my stepdad brought home a heavy industrial-vinyl inflatable alligator

home for my sister and I to swim on in the pool. My sister liked to do this thing where we sat on it

sideways and she would flip us backwards into the water; she did it and I got trapped underneath

this heavy vinyl alligator and couldn’t get it off, I completely ran out of air and panicked, but

somehow I fought my way to the top. I think I yelled at her and cried and got out of the pool after

that.

6. When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back?

I will leave for where I am going hopefully once I have amassed enough to live on. I will

probably spend a good deal of time there but eventually come back once I have got it out of my

system.

7. How many life goals have you had?

Few major ones, mostly I have smaller goals. I used to be way ambitious until I found out

that achieving most of them would cost a lot. I’ve been in college for too many years now, but I

always think of Confucius’ “It does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop.” I

am close to finishing college and I will be the first in my immediate family to do so. I have met a

lot of traveling goals though, when I was 16 I made a list of all the big cities/countries I wanted to

visit, and so far I have accomplished going to Spain, Morocco, Paris, and Tokyo, as well as more

accessible cities like LA and San Francisco. I’m really proud of meeting those goals, at least.

8. Describe your last conversation?

Last night I discussed with someone how I don’t get why people are so self-deprecating.

I guess I was raised with oodles of confidence, because I don’t get why people are so hard on

themselves or call themselves insulting things. I can admit my faults, but I’ll never bash myself for

them.

9. What is the next step?

This is short term, but once I have time I want to wash all my laundry, give away some of

my excess things, and read my giant pile of books. I think I’ll have time in exactly one month.

10. Are these surveys?

They are surveillance, you are a voyeur. Or maybe you are like Freud? I think it’s great to

reach into someone’s brain and poke around where most people don’t, I love psychoanalysis.

Most people don’t ask enough about what people think.

Participant Eight // Final Survey

1. Why do you want what you want?

A long series of stimuli and reactions.

2. How are the things around you relating to one another?
Spacial and conceptual relations. 

3. The water or the earth?
The Earth, but the water is nice to visit.

4. Do you have any medical conditions?
No. Well, mild asthma.

5. Have you ever had a near death experience?
Probably the closest i’ve come has been on my bike.

6. When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back?
Soon i hope, we’ll see if I come back.

7. How many life goals have you had?
Lots of little ones, and a few big ones.

8. Describe your last conversation?
A quick chat with an old and very dear friend. The worth of the conversation far outweighed the length.

9. What is the next step?
moving forward

10. Are these surveys?
yes

Participant Seven // Final SurveyWhy do you want what you want?

I feel like I need it. And it’s good.

How are the things around you relating to one another?

Quite well. I am in my friend Alan’s room as he plays with a pair of Chinese stress bells that I won at a Gameworks when I was in middle school.. My other roommate is cackling from the other room, beckoning Alan (and the bells) into the joke’s vicinity. It’s good. On a larger scale, I have no idea what the fuck is going on, barely feel the forces that create the landscape, and so on.

The water or the earth?

I want it all.

Do you have any medical conditions?

No.

Have you ever had a near death experience?

Or so i thought.

When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back?

“I’m leaving forever and I’m never coming back” -Me, yesterday

How many life goals have you had?

7267.

Describe your last conversation?


While listening to some funk with previously mentioned friend Alan, we remembered that we really loved this band that we saw the other day called Soropolous Rex. We’re (scheming to/)going to have a party at our house with them and some other classy dudes and have a 1950’s party. Maybe it will be referred to as a Mad Men party, per the request of some of the more avid TV-watchers in the house.

What is the next step?

Putting the ideas into a communicable medium.

Are these surveys?


I certainly thought so, but this question is beginning to make me skeptical.

Participant Six // Final Survey 

Why do you want what you want?

On the most basic level what I want (or at least what I’m starting realize what I need is) perpetual motion/change and at the same time I’m craving stability. I suppose I want that because I find I’m happy as long as I’m in motion on a creative level and I love the stability of familiar feeling all at the same time. Maybe I already have what I want?

How are the things around you relating to one another?


This is a weird question because I’m really not sure what ‘things’ refers to. I’ve got a dog and a cat and they get along and sometimes for only brief moments they get into an actual scuffle but they definitely know better than to fight and stop right away and sometimes they engage in this funny play wrestle thing,

The water or the earth? 


Water mostly but part of me wants the Earth. I feel like they both symbolize two different people.

Do you have any medical conditions?

I feel like I have two very different people inside me sometimes but not in a weird way.

Have you ever had a near death experience?


Possibly, the first was on a motorbike. I was riding with my dad and brother for maybe the 2nd or 3rd time and I had fallen behind them because I really wasn’t all that great at riding my bike yet. Anyways they had stopped and started talking about which part of the desert we would head out to, since they had both been out riding together pretty frequently. I finally caught up and stopped as they had both started their bikes again and taken off. So I tried starting my bike up, this was something I was not comfortable with yet ha, I accidentally started the bike up in second gear. I was facing a wired fence and my bike was thrown into the wires at the top speed of 2nd gear only after I had been riding along the fence long enough to hit one of the poles. I smashed my face into it and was left on the ground with my bike just totally out of comission. Thank god I was wearing a helmet. 

When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back?


I plan on leaving to Los Angeles to kind of experience a real city in January. I don’t plan on coming back anytime soon but I already feel like no where else will feel like home.

How many life goals have you had?


Dozens? Hundreds? ha, I feel like my life goals are always expand. I pretty much look at every goal as a life goal though.

Describe your last conversation?

My last conversation was with a friend. He asked me if I wanted to go over to his girlfriends house and try and come up with something to do but I declined because I knew I would just go over there and it would be about as entertaining as being here. Plus I guess there are better things that I should be doing besides hanging out all day (i.e. this survey)

What is the next step?

 To practice enough different things to really find out what I do best and then do that the best I can.

Are these surveys?

No, they’re questionnaires. I feel like most surveys I’ve ever filled out have been simple answers. Maybe these are even the loosest version of essay questions. No matter what they are I feel like I’ve really grown from doing this and I always look forward to getting them as well as seeing what you make at the end of the week. I hope you do more projects like this in the future. 

Participant Five // Final Survey

1. Why do you want what you want? Because it wonderful and much

overdue.

2. How are the things around you relating to one another? Chaotic and non-

linear.

3. The water or the earth? Earth

4. Do you have any medical conditions? Depression.

5. Have you ever had a near death experience? Yes, in an ER. I was myself in

the future standing in NYC Chinatown at night and very confused.

6. When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back? As

soon as it is appropriate. Symbolically, no.

7. How many life goals have you had? So, many! They may be related yet

evolve and change over time.

8. Describe your last conversation? Working out the logistics to become a

social worker by profession versus only practicing it as habit.

9. What is the next step? Possibly going back to school.

10. Are these surveys? They are more like interviews.

Participant Four // Final Survey

1.      Why do you want what you want? it is the next step in my progression towards enlightenment, it is what i am called to do

2.      How are the things around you relating to one another? inextricably bound, there is no divide

3.      The water or the earth?air

4.      Do you have any medical conditions? i am legally blind

5.      Have you ever had a near death experience? every day.

6.      When will you leave for where you are going? in five minutes

Will you come back? before 2

7.      How many life goals have you had? endless amount

8.      Describe your last conversation? lucas asked me where the subconscious lighter came from, and i told him it came from the couch.

9.      What is the next step? go to walmart.

10.  Are these surveys? no…?

Participant Three // Final Survey

1. Why do you want what you want? I want to be able to graduate college

most of all currently. I really would like to be able to do what I love while

sustaining a certain level of income. I don’t want to be a famous producer

or musician. Fame would not agree with me; I have enough social anxiety

as it is. I guess I want my basic human needs to be fulfilled while still

being “ahead of the curve” as far as finances are concerned.

2. How are the things around you relating to one another? My room is a

complete mess. I don’t have as much room as I’d like, but it works. The

posters on my walls are completely unrelated to one another. I have a

shower curtain with dolphins on it that serves as a door to my “closet.”

Basically, my room is a converted attic space, so there’s a very strange

way every angle of the walls comes together.

3. The water or the earth? Definitely the Earth. I don’t like the ocean; it is

very intimidating.

4. Do you have any medical conditions? When I was 17 I passed a kidney

stone. It was the most awful experience of my life; painful, scary. The

doctors didn’t find any traces of calcium in my bladder, so they assumed

it was just a urinary tract infection, and prescribed me drugs accordingly.

I went to my family doctor for a follow-up, and he determined that the

doctors had prescribed the wrong medicine completely, as I will still

having pains. I went back to the hospital for a contrast MRI, and they

asked me if I had donated a kidney. I told them I hadn’t, and they said

that the tubes to my kidneys on the left were probably blocked somehow

because it wasn’t showing up on their scan. I went to an urologist to

have a “scope” procedure, where they put a camera up your urethra. He

determined that what I had passed was actually a bladder stone, rare in

humans. He said that this was a sign of kidney malfunction… Well, I went

in to another MRI and they still couldn’t show my left kidney. By this

point, I was very worried. Well, another X-Ray showed that I didn’t have a

left kidney at all. There just wasn’t one… I was born with only one kidney.

This apparently occurs in 1 out of 700 people, so it’s not very rare at all,

surprisingly. Most people don’t find out that they only have one kidney

because they never have an incident like I had. I have to make sure I drink

plenty of fluids and keep my system clean now. Cranberry juice is my

friend!!!

5. Have you ever had a near death experience? No, thankfully!

6. When will you leave for where you are going? I have a studio session at 8

to work on a group assignment, I guess I’ll leave at 7:30 or so…

7. Will you come back? Yeah, probably really late at night, though

8. How many life goals have you had? Well, in junior high and high school

that was finding a boyfriend and maybe settling down, which is difficult

where I come from. I have since realized that that goal will just come with

time. I don’t try to work hard on that one… Currently, I’m just trying to

stay afloat and finish school.

9. Describe your last conversation? I told my roommate about my studio

proficiency exams, and asked him what he’s doing for Thanksgiving this

year. My dad is coming here to visit, and I need to know details about

people’s plans. He might stay in my other roommate’s room if he can’t get

a hotel. Plus, my brother might be coming, but he hasn’t gotten his work

schedule yet.

10. What is the next step? The sandwich I just ate wasn’t very satisfying… I’m

going to make some mac and cheese!

11. Are these surveys? Not in a very traditional sense, they aren’t. Most

surveys I see are very specific, and usually consist of yes/no questions.

However, I think that the results that you have gotten are more specific

than anything a tradition survey can determine.

Participant Two // Final Survey 

1. Why do you want what you want?
Because I need it.
2. How are the things around you relating to one another?
Right now, the 24 things that are happening around me don’t seem to be related at all, but that’s only because for the past three days I’ve had an extremely pessimistic outlook on life.
3. The water or the earth?
Earth.
4. Do you have any medical conditions?
haha. Yes. At the moment I have a ganglion cyst in my right hand. It’s been neuropathic for the past three days. I also have a chronic arthritis called ankylosing spondylitis and joint hyper-mobility syndrome. I also am 20% deaf and still have tubes in my ears to help with pressure control. 
5. Have you ever had a near death experience?
I don’t think so.. My sister fell off a 2 story inflatable side once though!
6. When will you leave for where you are going? Will you come back?
Yes. I always come back. My ties to whatever community I’ve ever been a part of has always been too strong.
7. How many life goals have you had?
I make short term goals. But I think I’ve had 3. And haven’t meant any of them…yet.
8. Describe your last conversation?
Zz and I kept talking about what we wanted to do tonight and eventually decided we didn’t want to go out. She decided to go to bed.
9. What is the next step?
Get this cyst out of my hand, finish the semester, get an internship, and kick ass next semester!
10. Are these surveys?
Is this the Matrix?
 
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